Heart Unsaid

When you’re growing up, you started to see changes in people as well as surroundings. Changes can be nasty but can be good. Some turned around from their mistakes but some people just continued their bloody mistakes when they have lack of love. Life was meant to be complicated since the beginning. But I don’t get it why some people who have tons of love from people but yet they still want to feel miserable. Don’t they know they’re so fortunate to be love and cared. It’s so foolish to be miserable when there are still people who loved you for who you are and always remember you are the special one. I was wondering why I have to feel so miserable and ask myself whether I was worth living. Sometimes, I feel like I’m nothing and just a piece of vase useless enough.

In fact, don’t feel less than perfect coz PERFECT NEVER EXIST! Swallow the fear and mistakes you made, turned from your shadows of past. Be grateful that you’re alive with all you have is more than enough.

I believe GOOD THINGS do happen in life but on a happy day, we still can feel sad. That’s life, isn’t it?

"Happy Mother Day" to all Mommies in the world. Give your biggest love to her

BBQ

I felt glad that I was able to celebrate my bestie’s 19th birthday at her house last Saturday. We joined the celebration with both her family and relatives having BBQ. Everyone was enjoying their moment so does us. Although I gave her a simple gift but I promise to keep looking for a better gifts year by year for her birthday.

It’s always not easy choosing a gift for someone special in your life. I know how it felt to be stress over finding a birthday gift and the fact that Brunei is so small. Everything that sells here seems to be quite common to us. But I also know that the most important is to be truthful and thankful for all the people that are here to celebrated with you. Everyone ought to feel lucky and happy that there are so many people who truly want you to feel like the happiest girl, family and friends around you. They are the root to your life and heal for your wound coz without their love. You will feel something missing to that puzzle in your heart. I know I’m kind of late to post this but I still want to. HEHEH!

The moments of Youth's happiness is just amazing. Getting older doesn't means we still can't have fun.

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See you in next post! =)

My lovely dog

HELLO, EVERYBODY !!

As I’m always staying at home, I realized I spent so much time with my dog than before when I was always in Bandar for the past two years. We created a bond together, treating him like a sibling of mine as he makes me less lonely and more lovable every time. He doesn’t have a name but I just called him ‘Ko pi.’ By the way, I called every dog “Ko pi” unless they got a name. I happened to start adopting dog as pet since I was just a toddler in my family. I have been replacing my dogs when they are gone or died, I know their lifeline is shorter than human that’s why I stopped giving name for them coz of losing faith that they still going to leave me one day although we love each other to bits. I don’t want to remember the names of all my past dogs and feel sad about it.

His Play toy!!

Enjoying his time with his new toy!

I bought my dog a toy ball from Supasave with bestie after knowing that he really like to put stuffs in his mouth and carry it around to show us with his fluffy tail shaking happily making us smile with his cuteness. I need to throw the ball to let him chase it and give it back to me. The problem is that he never gave me back the ball, when I want to pull it out from his mouth. He further bite it and put deeper into his mouth and tighter. Wtf. HAHA! Sometimes I feel like the bonds and love we shared is getting deeper that I’m afraid of losing him. Out of so many past dogs, he is one of the special and cutest dog I ever had for the past 21 years behind. He doesn’t have good appetite and eat madly like other dogs but he needs lots of love and pat on his head every time and wait for us to walk with him in the evening. He's just like a human being that really need to feel love from his family. One thing that I really appreciated him beside being cute looking, he's also a guard for our house. At least, he's not just a vase but a protection for our safety.

Dog have six sense, they can sense when their time has come and the person they wanted to see is YOU before they die. I remembered my dad used to adopted a dog that he loved a lot. But one time, his dog got really sick but my dad was in offshore. After few days, my dad finally came back home and saw him in this situation. The dog was happy but weak to finally see his favourite owner back, but that very minute he took one look at my dad and closed his eyes peacefully. That was really devastating and touching for him to hold on so long. That explained how much your dog loves you. They want their owner to be there for them through difficult journeys before departing. Dogs can bring the biggest joy and emotional feelings to human that are worth hundreds of memories and that's why they are

"MEN'S BEST FRIEND!"

When they're lost, they needed you the most through difficult journeys

Dogs have at least 10years to go so you better precious your moment with them as they truly need your love and care. Their life depends on you! Love them with all your heart! Remember they love and need you=)

SuperIdol's Finale Night

All Super Idol contestants

黃文星

Signing autograph!

Judges!

Crazy moment!

The M.Y's Supporters!!

With Ahyen

My Cydi Lauper~ Supporter all the way

This is definitely a night to remembered, attending Super Idol Finale competition held in Bandar was worth it. We went to supported and cheer for Michelle Yang’s Rock Performance. Although she did not won but we are still proud that she have made it to the finale which is INCREDIBLE! Not only that we can watched all the contestants’ performances with judges comment.

They invited Taiwan artist Wang Wen Xi to the stage. His voice was awesome so does his looks. It was quite busy but exciting to be around friends, dancers, judges, contestants and the artist. This is my first time I get to meet and take picture with a real artist. I almost wanna screamed when I saw the picture coz I still can’t believe I just met an artist. The first place goes to Peter Chin, hope he can record good songs in Taiwan and start his music career. I can’t describe how hyper I was in the crowd and crazily flashes everyone with the paparazzi. The night ended after midnight coz too many people wanted to take picture and autograph from Wang Wen Xin.

Craziest Night of the year!

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HAPPY EASTER DAY, EVERYONE!! LOVE IS ALL AROUND!

Camera shooting

Flash mode in the car

My necklace on 'defocus background.' I knw my room a lil dark

Normal skin type shot

Check out the skin, it's 'face soften'..Don't care my fugly hair coz I just woke up that time pretty early morning just to charge the cam

Background Defocus (with my favourite accessory to make the demo)

I have been obsessed with this new camera that belonged to baby. He just bought it few days ago. It was a pleasure that he lend it to me and I survived the functions all day long. It's still consider a new model coz the product came in last 3 weeks ago. I have always waited to use a good cam, finally it's on my hand. I promise myself when I got my own job and earn lots of money, I WILL buy a camera coz I just love taking pictures. Apart of taking pictures of myself being vain is really normal in nowadays girls. I took pretty objects too.

The best function is that it have 'defocus background' means it will focus on a particular object while the background is all blur. You can even choose the background, you want it to be low, middle or highly blur in order to focus more on the front object but the background is recommend to be 30m distant to successfully shot in defocus background. That was cool for me coz I always love images with defocus background. There was another interesting function that caught my eyes, it's the 'Face Soften'...It basically soften the skin colour on your face, it looked smoother and fair. There are quite many excellent functions in this cam. There's just no need to explain every details. The above images shown to u are just some of my demo photo shooting.

Baby Bumps

1990~ the year I was borned and got overweight and crying for more milk. Sis laughed at the way I cried like a red pumpkin.

I simply LOVE all the RIDES in every supermarkets.FAT DIE HERE

In 1995. I was 5years old, attending church

My family photo in the past. The baby on my mum's arm is me

Jus love to have fun only. Keke!

My hair is so ugly. Pffttt. Im female pls ==!

I looked like a male, even when I was still in mommy's tummy. Doc said I was a male. Wtf. But when my mom gave birth to me, they said,'oops, it's female.Mybe Im nt meant to be a female ==

Tonight I'm sharing my childhood's pics. To be frank, I've always been a happy child in the past in my family, through good and bad times. But I'm also the kind of girl who doesn't take things seriously when it comes to disappointment or lost. I can never accept the bad way since I was a child, I just smile and let things move on. I hide the burdens and sadness inside me but I still stay strong and doesn't wanna be emo and be happy again the next minute. That's the best thing being a child, you don't worry about life coz you're too innocent to be worrying.

Even as a child, I simply love taking pictures. I always take pictures with my dad coz we spent lots of time together and have similar hobbies. In fact, most of the pictures are taken by him. He was always there to spent time with me and making me feel less lonely everytime. He gave me the best memories in such a short time.

Simply love to pose!

Me with sis! I looked chubby~~ Hehe!

Love riding but hate the songs!! Haha!

Enough baby picsssss?? I hope so.....Haha!! Wish everyone a great day ahead. Loves xxx

Healing

I wanna thanks God for answering my prayer. I’m back to normal, my head bandage is removed at Ripas and everything went quite well. I can chew foods again! But for the mean time, I can’t eat foods that are hard to bite just in case my jaw is bitching around with me again so I will be extra careful. I can’t be too crazy shouting and laughing widely anymore. A bit sad for this but I'll slowly recover myself means I won’t be job hunting for the moment. To be upfront, I feel pretty useless and unproductive like a sick person who can’t work and just have to meet with appointment after appointment. I hope it ends asap!

But I am so glad I don’t have to wear the bandage coz it had been troublesome to me for the past few days as I can’t wash my hair. As soon as the nurse removed my bandage, I felt so much better like a rope that’s tied to me is released. My head feels lighter and mom suggested I go to the saloon to wash my hair after hospital. I had the time of a moment in Saloon having my hair scratched, washed, massage and blew dry into beautiful waves.

After washed hair at Bandar's saloon. Looking much more healthy thn before!

And btw, my hamster population is growing more and more. Look at this mommy feeding its babies. Ain’t it cute? Hehe

SUCKING milk