Precious Pride

The reason I stand so strong for my religion is mostly from the role model of my dad. He was such a great and holy man. I want to be just like him when I grew up and I secretly wished that I can see him in heaven one day and to share this eternal life together when I’m gone. I do not wish that I convert to any religion in the future. I remembered the last dream I met him, he was in a place all bright white in colour. It was as if we were standing on the clouds up on the sky. I believed dad is in Heaven, the place he should be where he won’t suffer with pain again.

No matter how you force me to convert, my heart will not be in peace. My life will be done if I separate from Christianity coz it’s the only and precious religion that I can feel such powerful love and peace within. The experiences that I have gone through with Christ by my side have been amazing. I will be furious for whoever who try to drive me out from my own pride!!

You will never understand my experiences. When I’m afraid, I cross my fingers and prayed silently begging for help. After praying, there was always a sudden feeling of peace hard to define within me pouring over my soul. When I’m searching for an answer, I always found it right from the bible of the same topic I have in mind. A bible consist thousands of pages but yet I can find the answers when I simply flipped it. Do you really think it is coincidence?! No, it’s not! Coz God show me the way.

Epic Outburst!

Last night, I was staying at Bandar. Suddenly we were awake by the outburst sound outside my balcony. The bursting and pouring sound was so outrageous and at one moment I thought we were attack by tsunami due to the bombing sound of water. Me and sis jumped up from bed afraid of the sound and take a peek at the window and saw an outburst pouring of huge waterfall from the gigantic tall water tank above. The first outburst of water spilling looks like a huge waterfall then slowly it becomes smaller portion but our area was flooded. Our sandals were being washed to backyard and vases falling and breaking. Dustbins were being washed away to other area and tree branches broke all over the pathway, tiny stones being worn off by the flood. Everything was in a mess. Luckily we live in hillside so the flood decrease quickly but it flow to the neighbor area instead of the main road.

Huge!

Water tank was left spilling gallons of water for hours till morning the water department came to think of a plan to fix it. But the water keep spilling for 10hours and you can imagine how much gallons of water is wasted from that water tank. The tank happened to have small leaks and downpour for small amount of water for the past few weeks but no fix was given yet and last night the great force of water couldn’t handle anymore and it finally burst out its wall and splash out its nature force which make that harder to fix. Seriously it's so scary to live infront of a huge tank!

Zoom in. Wall was burst out into holes. Morning still downpour non stop but not as much as the first waterfall burst like RAIN

A big tree branch in front of our gate and garbages all over after water flood from tank

Water flowing to neighbour's house at the back

My area, all the flower vases drop to the drain and broken floor tiles worn off everywhere

The tree branches hit this van that parked outside when the downpour happened. Its mirror had a little crack

Hope it will never happen again! =(

God Bless Us!

Complication of words

Introducing tumblr to everyone where arts, images, pictures and words came alive with imagination goes wild. A place to reblog all you want and need. I have been playing tumblr for 1 and a half years and it still ain’t boring to me. They provided uncountable inspired, funny and all kind of images that you can think of. I loved it when tumblr inspired me in so many ways through pictures yet you understand what they shown with only simple features. I love arts and pictures and that’s the reason I loved tumblr.

They speak the truth and also the words that are far more complicated to describe in relationships, friendships, family and pets. Here are two very inspired words that I found from tumblr :

~Pain makes you stronger, tears makes you braver, heart break makes you wiser, so thank the past for a better future.

~Relationships last long not because they are destined, Relationship last long coz two people make a choice – to keep it, to fight for it, and to work for it. Meanwhile, other relationships fail not because they’re destined to fail. They failed because one of the two, or both made the choice to set free.

One in a Million

It was raining so heavily and strong wind was blowing so hard till you can see the rains are being blow together in parallel ways. My mom was going to go out for awhile to buy Gas tank as our house gas had finished and she need to cook lunch. The weather was so bad and I saw her opening the gate when the umbrella was overturn due to the strong harsh wind. She drove out but my dog suddenly rushed out to chase my mom’s car and stand in front to stop her from going out to the road on this kind of weather. In the end, my mom still managed to drove out to the road. My dog came back home all wet and worried, and was in a mess he was running back and forth to get a closer look at the pathway waiting impatiently for my mom to come back. In fact, it started to make me worry coz the weather was getting worse.

I was home alone that time. I opened the door to see my dog, he rushed to me whining almost sounds like crying and looking at his worried eyes, I was shocked. Honestly, I’ve never seen my dog so worried and chaotic to this level. In fact, I was starting to worry for my mom driving in such a bad weather so I called her mobile and she picked up. She said she’s heading back now. I was praying hard for the rain and strong wind to calm and my prayer was answered. My dog was still waiting for my mom at our house open gate impatiently under the rain. Finally my mom came back home safely, he was jumping for joy again.

This sense of touching is so valuable and I realized how much our dog loved us. I never knew his love was so unlimited and touching.

He might just be a dog but their feelings are a heart of Gold. One day, one time, they can touch you without them knowing but you can see it in your own eyes. This is one of my rare incidents between us and my dog’s love.

Where can you find such a pretty yet has an unconditional love for us. One in a million love

Hope everyone will love their pet dog more unconditionally coz any separation from you is painful to them. They needed you in their life coz you make them less lonely and filled them with family love as they lost their real families.

Rage for Rugged

Mine Favourite! SCawaii Magazine

Seriously I am so influenced by reading so many fashion magazines lately at home since I am so damn free. The fashion magazine from Japan called ‘Scawaii’ are just the taste of styles I love to look and learn except the winter style that I don’t need in my brilliant summer whole day long country. Sometimes I feel lucky living in a country that doesn’t have winter coz it decreased the troublesome we have to encounter. I feel so into shopping mood and waiting for KL sales! I need to update my closet soon!

Here are the list of shopping items I am going to find :

1. A pretty jacket to match more singlet (Not sweater)

2. ‘Closed up toes’ heel

3. A ripped panty hose

4. Cardigan with half sleeve

5. Belt for dress! (Previous belt getting tighter as my WEIGHT increase)

6. RINGS (Hope I can find a Spade ring, can’t find it anywhere in Brunei)

Ripped Panty hose to match with Long blouse! I am so ready to mix and match it!!

Well, life can be so materialistic sometimes but let’s not forget it’s not easy to earn money so save up as much as you can! TATA! See you all in next post

I came to Bandar for a last week and it was brilliant. It felt so stress relieved to be able to feel free and getting to see the outside world and people everyday. It was nice to catch up all the new movies that had been out, all were awesome movies. I loved every single moment spent with baby after being distance apart from each other for quite some times as he’s working in Bandar and I had already completed my college life back there. Changing location does help a lot with our emotions. It was even more wonderful when you get to see your loved one and enjoying our time drawing our relationship closer each time we met. Our bond can’t be break that easily, baby. I love you to bits!

We are the sign of fishes that are fate to be pair up coz without one another, we would be alone swimming. Let's swim and rock the ocean, my Pisces Boy! 22 is our Anniversary. My birthday 20March + urs 2March = 22. No matter how we turn around, the number still haunted us for 4 years and counting through good and bad times.

The number determined us and to be upfront, it did freak me out a little when this number appeared constantly when we are together, in quarrel and during anniversary outing. But after years of thinking, I know this is not coincidence coz conicidence can never be so accurate and so much similarity happenings in families and in us.

It’s really nice to know that outside, there are still people who cared about the friendships we held on rather than letting go or should I say eliminated. Meeting back college mates to catch up and have a little girls’ time was another moment that unwind my soul and mind. At least I know there are still people who really precious friendship and still are able to come together as one even with distance. It was cool to walk to the Empire beach with the girls where we keep scaring ourselves with negative thoughts when we heard tree branch cracking and sound of the insect flies. But the little breeze that followed us through the pathway to the beach felt really nice. Laugh out and speak out is what I done that makes me feel better. Loves!!

Fun outing with babes to Empire and the Beach :)

Hearts U all~ !!!

Your Heart, My heart

I realized changing location and planning outside activities are quite effective in minimizing our emotional breakdown. Sometimes human acted weirdly when they get tired of their life or just being upset about the whole situation. I guess moving to another place really helped in arranging our emotions. Bring some activities, go out and have a laugh and talk with people around you. Let your heart speak out. Nobody can handle being emotional alone. Slowly, this untouched heart will eventually turn cold and breathless. Even HEARTS need to breathe through their lifeline and drain all emotional breakdowns so they can feel a slight of hope which later becomes faith. A simple heart had its limit of stuffing everything into it. They need more POSITIVE FORCE than negativities to feel ALIVE.

Treat your heart with the utmost care, they need your cooperation as well with your thoughts.