Paris, a Dream

As all of you know that UK was my big part of Fantasy that will never become my Reality. I wanted to visit or even study abroad there but sadly I really had no chance which I have said a thousand times. Lately, I have been hearing so many issues from my friends saying UK may look like the happiest paradise to Bruneians. But actually it's not what they think of.

Check out this Picture of "Before going to UK" and In Reality:

As I have mention going to UK has always been a Dream to me coz I know I will never make it there. But at the same time, I love meeting New places and New people. I really love socializing and making new friends. My dream lifestyle is to be Independent and experiencing the outside world not by vacation but living there for a period.

If I get to go to UK, I wonder will I be Home Sick? Will I be Stress? All I know is that if I really have a chance to go. I will definitely precious all the moments there and experience a whole new world. Lifestyle there may be too high class for us which make it harder but a change of experience in your life seems so exciting. I feel bad cos I think I'm not the kind of girl that gets Home Sick easily.

Im Back!

I know I have been Missing In Action almost a month or more. I have been falling sick after my colleague left our Company and also after CNY. She has been a great asset and a loss to us when she left. Well, life is getting old on me and everyday it's all about Work and sometimes I wish I can be better and absorb things faster in a way. There is so much you need to take responsible for and I wanted to be there. It's sad sometimes when I felt blur and useless for a moment. But I always get it all up and face it.

I guess there is no such thing as climbing to the top without having few falling times. So yeah, I am halfway there so don't take too long coz I feel it this way. I just wanna be a great improvement to everyone's eyes. Not just a newbie! I wanna learn everything that I could suck everything into my fugly brain!

I remember when I was in Highschool, I got picked on coz I wasn't some kind of SMART-ASS student and I always get the lowest 10 Positions. But I always studied the hell out of my life, even my mum can see that I stayed up late just for the sake of putting everything in my brain for exams. I even studied earlier 2months before exams but in the end, friends who studied last minutes passed wheres I failed. It's weird! Now I am in a career zone, I felt the same way somehow back to Highschool. It's like I'm so hell hardworking but I still sucks sometimes.

All I want is PERFECTION!