Bad Day :(

I have a Bad Day.

Hate crying early in the morning and there's no place to hide from everyone. I hate to share the sadness with other people, it makes me feel really bad. But I just accept Mistakes in Life and especially career. I screwed up and I know I mess up a lot of times.

Why Can't I be perfect?! Why can't I do things right without CARELESS mistake and not able to forgive myself instantly. I hate myself for being grew up so stupid, careless and blurr.
I can't forgive myself. I screw up seriously. I hope everything went well. The result is not out yet. My only hope depends on God cos I have faith in Him and I know he will let me proceed successfully!

People may make fun of me and think I'm crazy but they're wrong. Faithful person always have Hope.

Life in Wheels Cycle

I find this picture very sensible and easily understandable. 9gag had been quite popular nowadays. You would almost find them everywhere from the net. You may realized that almost all the 9gags are the Fact and Truth that happened in our daily routines. Just sharing some

 

Look at this picture, it shows the cycle of Life in Wheels. In my age, the most important wheel is probably the Car. Without the Wheel, we would have hard time begging for transport to and forth. Basically, we depends on Wheels. Without them, we are helpless.  

Lost or Found

Somtimes, I wonder to myself. Does opposite attract work out right? Does it work out when both of your thoughts and wants are very different apart. I'm just afraid that it will be shaken.

 

I remember watching 'Bride Wars' before. I remember the last part so vividly that one girl realized that they were not meant to be together simply because they want different things in life. It's specially sad when the part she let go of her spouse on their wedding day and walk away on the aisle. That's insanely emoitonal. While her friend choose the right man that's willing to walk with her because they want the same thing in life..

 

I always think that the people who can let go are the bravest....

 

Dream On

If you know me well. You should know I love everything adventurous and I can get please easily with low expectations. I wish to explore the other side of the world in western places like Greece, Italy, UK, Canada and the list go on. I can get easily bored with life. I need new things that can cheer me up from time to time. I love the sun shinning brightly under me and going to places I never been before and meet strangers in town. Shake hands and say How are you doing. Having tea with friends and walking under the sun having a new life and chapter. I'm dreamy and sometimes I just can't control my thoughts going mad this way.

Well, I just can't accept the 'Black and White' life. I need Colours to fill my soul and heart. Meeting new people are one of the interesting part I love cos I like it when they know nothing about me and I can start conversation to learn more about their personality. There are times I came across the bad side of them as I observed carefully and the reason why I don't trust people. Once they lied, I will never trust them again. I don't give second chances. I only forgave but it doesn't mean I can trust you again. I will protect myself in order not to get hurt again. 

BOB

I feel so bliss that I finally have my new haircut, I mean a really short one. It's a BOB! I still can't believed I actually have the guts to cut it. This is a Before & After Pictures! If it wasn't for Bestie roaring me to cut my hair in instagram. I would have take a step back. Making a change feel so AWESOME.

Thanks God it looks fine! :)

Judgemental

The Six deadly judgements from others. Here are the following says from the children:

First child: I'm a LIAR cause I don't tell you everything

Second child: I'm STUPID cause sometimes I'm wrong

Third child: I'm FAT cause I eat when I'm hungry

Fourth child: I'm too nice so I'm FAKE

Fifth child: I'm WEIRD cause I'm not like you

Sixth child: I'm UGLY cause my face ain't perfect

It's a mean world out there and it's affecting thousand of people including me. I'm definitely the Second Child. I totally know how Kylie Jenner felt here cause she have the same doubt as me. I breakdown alot for the same reason even during my highschool years. Teacher would keep explained to the whole class and I don't know anything, and yes I feel dumb and breakdown...

 Which one are you? Confess now and don't let it get you down

Jayden's Art

I discovered a place of Arts and fantasy crafts right here in Kuala Belait. Oh so many vintage and favourite paper crafts and things that I have never seen so lovely before. Looking at all this things infront of me makes my mind doze off thinking hard how to accomplish the most beautiful handicraft. 

A whole handful of all kinds of papers and crafts from USA

Pictures of Arts on the wall

Look how creative this scrapbook is! There's a wrapper to put things in the middle of the opening book. The pages are very vintage and classic

Missing this place of Arts but sadly I didn't buy any of it as I'm broke to the core! :( Oh well, nevermind. There is always next time. The prices are VERY pretty so I need to earn a lot to cover my expenses.

That's all for today sharing!

Hopes

I have been thinking a lot lately. I feel so dull and old all of sudden. I miss my old life back then. It was such a cheerful memories. Nowadays, I only seen changes from all my closest people. It's true they grew older and less crazier than they were back then. I have to admit that I still can't quite accept the reality I'm facing YET. Maybe I will accept it in the future slowly.

Maybe my inner child is trying to get out and say YA'LL, CAN U FEEL MY ENERGY?!! I WANNA HAVE FUN AND GET ON AN ADVENTURE. Ok. whatever. I feel like I changed a lot too. It's like I have become a "little" boring and get fade up easily with my moods. I could sleep and pig a lot and then feel more emotional. All I need to a little outing to release stress!

So little time

I'm back on blog. Working life have been experiencing as I gone through ups and downs. Mistakes that I have made several times drown me easily but I learnt to stand back up cos all those mistakes and failures made me more skillful and take precaution on them in the coming days. So much happened in few months that I can't mention everything in one go. It's been so since I lay my hand on this blog that I don't where to begin with. I need to concentrate on my road to Success. I'm growing and growing inside and outside. I'm changing to a more negative person this year. God knows why..

All I can do now is try to survive this challenge and hopefully to win it all.

Paris, a Dream

As all of you know that UK was my big part of Fantasy that will never become my Reality. I wanted to visit or even study abroad there but sadly I really had no chance which I have said a thousand times. Lately, I have been hearing so many issues from my friends saying UK may look like the happiest paradise to Bruneians. But actually it's not what they think of.

Check out this Picture of "Before going to UK" and In Reality:

As I have mention going to UK has always been a Dream to me coz I know I will never make it there. But at the same time, I love meeting New places and New people. I really love socializing and making new friends. My dream lifestyle is to be Independent and experiencing the outside world not by vacation but living there for a period.

If I get to go to UK, I wonder will I be Home Sick? Will I be Stress? All I know is that if I really have a chance to go. I will definitely precious all the moments there and experience a whole new world. Lifestyle there may be too high class for us which make it harder but a change of experience in your life seems so exciting. I feel bad cos I think I'm not the kind of girl that gets Home Sick easily.

Im Back!

I know I have been Missing In Action almost a month or more. I have been falling sick after my colleague left our Company and also after CNY. She has been a great asset and a loss to us when she left. Well, life is getting old on me and everyday it's all about Work and sometimes I wish I can be better and absorb things faster in a way. There is so much you need to take responsible for and I wanted to be there. It's sad sometimes when I felt blur and useless for a moment. But I always get it all up and face it.

I guess there is no such thing as climbing to the top without having few falling times. So yeah, I am halfway there so don't take too long coz I feel it this way. I just wanna be a great improvement to everyone's eyes. Not just a newbie! I wanna learn everything that I could suck everything into my fugly brain!

I remember when I was in Highschool, I got picked on coz I wasn't some kind of SMART-ASS student and I always get the lowest 10 Positions. But I always studied the hell out of my life, even my mum can see that I stayed up late just for the sake of putting everything in my brain for exams. I even studied earlier 2months before exams but in the end, friends who studied last minutes passed wheres I failed. It's weird! Now I am in a career zone, I felt the same way somehow back to Highschool. It's like I'm so hell hardworking but I still sucks sometimes.

All I want is PERFECTION!

First of all, I wanna wish everyone A Happy Chinese New Year! Hope that 2012 brings luck and prosperity to all. Well, my schedule have been very tight especially I'm currently working. That ate up a lot of spare time but that's life and I won't blame it.

I received these photos all the way from my relatives at Canada together with a Christmas Card as my Uncle sent it during Dec and arrived here during New Year. Cousin got married away with a Portugal gorgeous lady namely Susan Furtado Loo. Their newly wed was beautiful just by looking at the photos! Just sit back and enjoy the Wedding Photos!

Dancing~

DREAMY!

Happy Family

Cath, his sis sang at his bro Wedding, "How Do I live Without You"

Bridemaids, Groom and all the flowers!

All the way from Canada

Sometimes I wish I have more relatives with hearts like them. But I guess the most lovable people are the one furthest from you.

See you in Next Post! :)

Happy Chinese New Year!