PFTTTTT!!

After one week of college classes, I just came to know that all our lecturers are so boring. Just giving lotssssssss of talking and we have to listen to write down notes. Well, at least there are two classes that are considered not that boring.

Well, I can’t stand listening for 3hours of lecture so I kept talking during strategic class yesterday. I have been quite talkative since high school. I seem to be still the same when it comes to college, the class was so silent and listening to lecturer blabbing really gets on my nerve and sitting there hurts my ass. So I started chattering away with Jia Qi. We were almost like WHISPERING so soft with hand language signs when she is just BESIDE ME but lecturer still heard our voice and shouted SHUT UP! Omg..give me a break. Second time, we whispered only but he still caught us and said “NOT AGAIN?!” What the hell is just whispering and hand language in class just for awhile. Even the others also caught chatting for few seconds get a SHUT UP from him. Pftttttttttttttt!!

Precious eyes

Precious eyes is like pair of SUNGLASSES that bring you to see different places and people in the world so LOVE your eyes to the max no matter how ugly or pretty they are

Lately I have been feeling annoyed and fade up of wearing spectacle. I really regretted that I didn’t take good care of my eye before due to long hours of wearing contact lens until redness of the nerves appeared on my eyes but I still don’t bother to take it out due to beauty. Dryness felt every morning when I woke up and it hurts so much even without wearing lens till I have to go to the doctor. Contact lens was abandoned for me as it can cause blindness if I still don’t listen to doctor. I was in critical stage last year but I managed to make it through without any touch of operation. Instead just by using eye drops helped to lightened the scars on my corneal from time to time. Scars can turn to hole if not properly taken well so it’s quite dangerous. If it turns to hole, I couldn’t imagine what my life will end up. I was afraid to lose my precious eyes so I stop using contact lens. With the thought of seeing your world in darkness is scarier than a nightmare.

I want to live my life in rainbow colors showing the cheerful side of me

I couldn’t dare to wear another contact lens again but honestly I MISS wearing it. It’s so much more convenient and doesn’t have to worry about spectacle falling down from my oily cheek which I have to wipe it for like more than 5 times a day.

Preaching

Can you figure out what this means?

I never failed to forget about Christianity. It’s the religion I have influenced from my daddy. He’s the greatest Christian that I looked up to. He experienced miracle that have made me believed in God and taught us a lot of things. Although I couldn’t be long with him, but all the memories shared between daughter and dad will be part of his motivation into my life.


I wanted to share something about this picture and the words written there. This picture identify how human can fall into the trap of materials in the world nowadays that have caused them to forget about God. Do you guys ever have the feeling of envy and greedy in having more and more materials such as the latest gadgets, branded handbags, and all kind of things that’s luxuries? Human have all right in having materials they like but in certain times, they get more envious as what others have.


People who loved materials too much can slowly forget about God. As shown in the picture, the person buying and having more materials that he had slowly forgotten and left behind him. He had loved the world more than God because all the materials are distracting his mind to have more materials. God want us to believe that he will always be there to help. When the world comes to an end, he will come for us and angels guide our soul at the eternity gate where our life will be judged. Jesus is always the savior. Hope everyone understands what I taught here. It’s a simple preaching from what I learnt.

“However desperate, I urge you not to cut off this string, for I will never let you go”

First day

BACK TO COLLEGE! well,nothing much interesting happened for day 0ne.

Another semester started with these :

1. I am not excited, not happy, not sad, not looking forward

2. Arrived at college, saw Mr.Prakash and shake hand but he squeezed it so hard that I yell. He's the joker among the lecturers so it's no surprise he's always in sense of humor.

3. Happy to see all the old faces of my mates and lecturers.

4. My financial management lecturer goes on BLAH BLI BLU BLAH while my mind drift off somewhere.

5. Waiting for breaktime and class dismiss m0st of the time coz my bench mate is absence and I sat alone.

6. Went to FarMBasket restaurant ate dinner with bby and bumped into my college mates there too.

7. End of the day. It wasn't a bad day as what I was expecting to. It was alrite =D

End of college Holidays

I have my hair cut and dyed. Actually, I wasn’t in the mood to go out but I have to coz my hair is losing its shape and black hair have grew back a lot and I’ll be going back to Bandar pretty soon for college reopen. Bought two package of dyed box from KB small Soon Lee and saw Michelle yang’s MUM. She waved at me to come over and chat awhile about my license, college life and some advice which driving teacher she need to choose for Michelle yang. Good luck for your exams and after A’level, must get your license pass with flying colors, ok? I have faith in you, must do well. You’re one hardworking person but laziness can be the disease of human so get motivation. I remember how you taught me math before with so much patience but I knew inside you were about to THROW BLOOD coz I am like the biggest loser when it comes to CALCULATION and math. HAHAHAHA!! So you must do well for your form6..gambateh!! Just think nothing can make you fall, be strong like a wall and study hardcore.

STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD!

HOLIDAYS is about to end like damn soon coz college reopen on next MONDAY. Oh boy, I don’t know whether I should be EXCITED, HAPPY OR JUST WONDERING.

Firstly, I might be excited coz,
I miss my college mates and I am excited to see them all again once more. I hope everyone will appreciate this last semester of college. There are uncountable experience and memories I left in this college and I just feel like I am beginning to adapt to it. I learnt from being friendly and good in making new friends. They are great and helpful. No uniform and no rules that you can’t bring your mobile and gadgets. But there are some rules that I hate to. Oh well, RULES exists in everywhere, right? Even a simple college does.

Secondly, I might be happy coz,
I felt satisfied and happy during this one month holidays as I get to spent more time with my kb good friends and bestie that I have not hang up often when I was way back in Bandar. I missed them like hell during college days. Also, I have passed my college critical result and driving license too. Everything is going great although I encountered some trouble during the progress of studying so hard and also the learning of fucking parking. ==’’

Thirdly, I might be wondering
Whether I will be happy in this last semester of college, I just hope there’s no trouble happening anymore which we have encountered before in both bad and good times. In every semester of college, there was something changed and I wonder will this semester be the same. I wondered if I will be able to cope with it. Basically, there are no worries but just wondering how people will changed through. College had thought me a lot of things in meeting new people and faces in reality, people that you can trust and also to be aware. But most importantly, I have already made friends that are worth to be loved and cared there. I will in return appreciate all the little things in this half year time and tried to cope with new things.

Relieved!

wish you Happy 3yrs, 10months anniversay, baby..thanks for being by my side through tough and good time. Most importantly being loyal all the time and you never cheat on me. Sorry that I did not spent much time with you this holidays but I will be sure we will be seeing each other more starting from next week at Bandar. I will be coming back to your side soon coz I miss DATING you..I miss watching movie with you..I miss eating good foods with you..I miss your hugs..and lastly I MISS AND LOVE YOU TO THE MAX!

Glad to announce that I officially passed for my retake on driving parking. Finally I don’t have to worry about transport to learn driving and who’s going to pick me. I failed parking last time so I just have to retake the lessons of parking and it’s easily finished although I am still not that steady in parking during the big day. I didn’t even feel nervous and did as best as I could until I reached the hardest section which is side parking. Gosh! It was one hell of a moment coz I parked a little “bengkok” but did not over touch the yellow line so it’s consider ok. The most critical moment was when my car slightly touched the tiang at the back of my car but it did not fall. My heart beat so fast when I was panicking coz I was having trouble getting out from the side parking. That was the only time I felt the most nervous but I did successfully in the end and 10minutes sharp! When I went out from the car, I faced my fear and accept my result..The Pegawai said “Lulus” and I started smiling and felt a touch of RELIEVED!! Finally it’s OVER. I am officially a driver now but won’t be using much at the moment due to being a BEGINNER..Damn..nevermind, I just wait.

Lately I have been eating damn lot and easily get hungry. I gained weight, the meat in my body have increased another layer. I bought three trousers and I can’t fit in “S” SIZE anymore. Instead felt much better in “M” SIZE! Maybe the hormones inside me are starting to take a change as I am in the age of 20 already. I would like to look more meaty and healthy because for my view, girls that are between 47kg to 49kg are the best shape of body which I have realized all these years. I have gained till 43kg recently and starting to see some chubbiness in my face, body, hands and butt but not the boob. HAHA! Before when I wore sleeveless clothes, my hands looked like skinny sticks but now it’s getting bit more meat. Girls out there, appreciate your own 48kg body coz I am wishing for body like yours. I am not joking.

My friends and close ones knew I LOVED to eat breads A LOT, I would like to introduced my fav bread shop and addiction to their tasty breads! enjoy the pics and do drop by to try their different type of pie, donuts,cakes and all kind of breads. it's delicious and melts in your mouth. You will be craving for more =)

Vanilla custard and strawberry donut

my fav Bread shop at Kiulap, "Bakerlyn"

A good view of these yummy donuts..ain't it lovely?

Look at this strawberry donut so beautiful made that I feel wasted to eat it..it's damN DELICIOUS

Cocktail Wedding

the pretty Bride, Francisca

Us with Bride and Groom

Francisca and hubby filling up the glasses of champagne

Francisca's Family and Melvin's Family

At the wedding

Ann Nepp Foh & Amery Nepp foh

Our elegant pose =)

At Mutiara Ballroom

with baby <3

17 July 2010 marks the special day for Francisca for her life time wedding and also our first friend get married. Happy for her that she found someone who loved and cared for her. Finally get to see her in her wedding dress, pretty! I went to Bandar with Missjoanndora ‘s family and have a ride in her car for Jia’s wedding. The weather was really bad when we were on the way to Bandar.

Missjoanndora was hungry so I decided that we went to Seri to have a little snack before the wedding. I wanted to see my college new outlook after the renovation and brought along Missjoanndora. Went up the lift and met up Mr. Siva and her workman. COINCIDENCE. Told him I wanted to take a look at rooftop but he said it’s closed! My heart went DOWN than he said “..but I can opened for you to see” HAHA! I was delighted, man! Actually it was due to Missjoanndora presence beside me that Mr.Siva let us take a look. The renovation was AWESOME BEAUTIFUL than before. I am so proud to be one of the students of Laksamana College, basically having amazing surroundings with experienced and friendly lecturers. Most importantly all certificates of the courses are recognized. The environment is pretty nice and easy going.

We went to Jia’s cocktail late one hour due to HEAVY traffic jam at Bandar road when we nearly reached. We have to que up and parked so far and walked with our men to the wedding. Too bad we were late and miss the bride and groom entrance. Cocktail wedding was going alright as it is. Have a few photos taken Jia and her husband for memories. She may be younger than us but her mind is not a child anymore, she worked for life and think like a woman. I wished her happiness and sweet forever with her husband. After we haven’t met for so long, she still got a little same style sense of humor and straightforward girl. The girl we knew before have grown much more mature. We all congrats her when she came to seek us. I enjoyed the western foods, sushis, desserts, lamb chop, mee, red wine and lots more delicious for me there as it’s favorite type of foods. OK, got to stop talking about foods now and go eat my Bakerlyn breads.

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BBQ at lumut beach

Heartx them <3

Beloved Yang<3

Bestie, the Owner of pudding&me <3

Tiny pudding with me

us with Pudding<3

Crazy girls here..haha! I love this shot

Beautiful Beach!!

Lovely Pudding<3

I have been having several functions lately and didn’t have time to update my blog the following day. My friends choose to have a BBQ at Lumut beach and it’s the exact NICE spot and day. It was public holiday and crowded with people having activities at the beach and playground area. There was Family Day events and packed with people. We saw people playing tug of war, kite flying and soccer activities around the beach. Bestie brought her cutie pie puppy Ding Ding and it was awesome to have it coz everyone take turn to pampered her. DING DING was the SPOT LIGHT of the day due to her CUTENESS. Actually I kinda miss her Ding ding already. How can you resist such an ADORABLE puppy with her innocent attractive big eyes.

We played soccer game and my team unbelievable won the match. Haha! Honestly, us girls playing soccer have been quite funny coz we never play this game before. Running around chasing the ball like mad but almost every goals were helped by the boys instead. Got “beautiful” SUN BURNS too! Crap! Well, the day goes on till 6pm and I headed home from BBQ. The beach was beautiful and we hang up there being playful and hyper at the beach. The sand was as hot as fire and so does the weather but we just played like never before, like wild animals. Pudding got scared when we acted like idiot jumping in a circle shape in front of her. Damn hilarious, her expression has a lot to say. She’s been pampered all day, being cuddled and ate all the good meaty foods. Well, enjoy the photos here!

Hopeless

At the edge of the world

If only I can think this way
Sometimes I feel like insanely stupid, great big failure and worthless piece of shit. Whenever I feel this way, I just feel like…giving up

I make mistakes and failed it in my life. Can I ever be successful in the future? I have failed so many things in life that’s uncountable. I failed in my driving parking in March and I have to admit

The first time I failed driving was a disaster coz all the times I learned extra long hours and even sacrifice one of my Chinese new year day to just to learn it. All these lessons have gone down the drain. I have choose the wrong driving school, such a BIG MISTAKE!! Troublesome! GOSH! I’m so stress right now. Whenever I LOOKED at people driving, I would felt a touch of envy in my eyes coz I wish I can be on the seat one day and bringing myself to places I wanted to. People used to say that when you’re driving, your life depend on the road coz if you make the biggest mistake, you lose your life. I am not in a rush to get license but for the sake that I have to force myself to remember how to use manual car and the memorizing the number of poles to looked at in parking is tiring indeed.
I’m at the edge of falling into pieces sooner or later. I just feel like if I fail again, I could give up completely. Maybe I’m just born to be worthless and useless. Sometimes I FEEL like I should be the one that leaves instead of dad. Since I’m so useless and have been a failure since I was a child. What’s the point of living.

I appreciated LIFE but life doesn’t appreciated me..

Every time my mind could reflect to the words of people who said that to me. The words ‘stupid, useless and worthless’ hurts me and it kinda make sense to me that I’m really is a hopeless girl. Maybe if one day I disappeared, everything will be much better coz there’s one worthless human being eliminate in this planet.

Piggies Peeps ReuNion

Yang trying to imitate Ugly Betty..haha!

Two lovable ladies, Yen and Yang

Me and beloved cheeky Fyzah ..HEHE!

Joann and darren, The Perfect Two

Beloved bestie for life <3

Chern Hin and Yau Bing with Madam Wee

Piggies Family<3

Hyper time with Madam Wee

A great day out during Friday with the lovely peeps to have a reunion for Yau bing and Chern Hin coming back from K.L. We used this chance to have a little get-together at 11 Sports Cafe, just the ex CHMS peeps. It felt nice to have this gathering once in awhile and we haven’t really changed much. Basically, life after high school for one year already, we seem to be still the same playful and active kids just the way we are. With the thoughts of everyone was presence so we decided to meet our beloved teacher, MADAM WEE. It was a pleasure we can met her and spent quality times with her. We all have a chit chat with her on the recent and past topics WHILE her Pr.2 young son was entertaining us. He’s like the funniest son ever…and he’s especially fancied missjoanndora and those who wore SHORTS!! Coz he like to touched people’s thigh.

Well, her son was distributing the packets of keropok from his plastic bag. The FIRST he handed to was Missjoanndora again. SEE how much he adored this lucky lady. HAHAHAHAH! He gave everyone the same packet of keropok until when he reached my turn. We exchanged looks and he managed to searched in his goodies plastic bag and choose a SMALLEST candy handed to me. Everyone burst out laughing with me too. He’s such a cute little funny boy entertained us.

I spent my time with the gang till night fall but some of them were heading back home by evening. Went to karen’s house watched ‘Fired Up’ which is a cheerleading movie and it turned out to be so FUNNY. When karen’s mum just came back from the front door. The scene of a particular girl pull off her bikini suddenly, no censor! Karen’s mum was just beside the corner putting back her sandals but not looking at the television yet. Karen clicked pause as fast as she can. It was a big PHEW that luckily her mum did not see that SHOCKING scene coz it was over that part already but we were worried just in case it flash back to the naked girl again. I loved the moment when all of us were VOICELESS but FACE FULL OF ‘OMG’ expressions with mouth opening. I wanted to laugh so hard at us, man! How could we know a cheerleading movie got this part of this particular girl exposing. Then her mum walked passed and looked at the paused television and looked back at us curiously and I bet she was wondering why are we concentrating on the paused scene so seriously. Basically, we were just trying to be calm and acted like nothing except smiling like retarded at the paused scene when her mum was looking.

Holidays at KB

With Love <3

mind your leg..Lolx

Karen's dessert

Delicious Vanila Italian Dessert

Dinner with karen's family

Jogging and sweating

at Moinam

Me and beloved Zah

Group photo

My ladies <3

At yang's hse

Haven’t blog for few days coz I have been having some outings and by the time I’m back, I just wanna SLEEP! On a Friday, I felt so great after having a day out with my girls at downtown Kb drink tea at Moinam and finally met up most of them. We talked, fooled around and vain around like all the customers in the restaurant are invisible. Bit malu la. Hahaha! But who cares?! Karen the cam girl with us everywhere and everyone that saw us passed by took a look at us but we just acted like it’s the most normal action and 100% legal to do so just fuck off. HAHA!

Finally FYZAH can turned up for hang up too coz we seldom meet often due to her busy-ness with baby Haziq or not able to go out on a particular day. She’s still the same girl that I known before. Love her as always too. And also Karen, yen, yang, M.K that I also haven’t seen them for sometimes when I was at Bandar last few months busy for assignments and exams. I am satisfied to spent time with all of them just like before how we used to be the same. We went to Karen’s house to watched movie of “Back-Up Plan” by J-Lo, the hot and hilarious Mama. HAHA! So many scenes till M.K tak tahan said….WHAT, why again ohhhh!!?? Western people cannot miss any scenes de, it’s their signature signs liao bah. Ahahahhaha!

We went for jogging at KB area in the evening and did some warm up that really gives lots of pain but do felt better. The smell of childhood memories never failed to make me feel happier especially with them all. I remembered how we used to spend so much time in high school that we have already bonded to have this feelings like one part of family. The next morning, went Bandar with mum to shop around. The muscle of my fat thigh HURTS like cramp. This is the reason when you don’t exercise much in your life.

I went for a date with baby for lunch this afternoon and seeing his chubby face made me smiled. We haven’t seen each other for like few weeks make me felt so delighted to meet him. Our date is simple but sweet. Spending time with just the two of us was great. I knew he was working very hard at Bandar and is always tired but that’s the only way to earn a living so you can’t be lazy. Don’t give a damn to people that’s way fucking rude to you. They will learn their lesson one day. I am gonna MISS YOU again when you go back to Bandar for work. Do come back in the weekend to see me k..I know there’s not many place to date here but I felt happy when I see you. I never get tired of seeing you for this 3years plus coz you’re my reality and not in a dream anymore. Remember to get daily diet in Bandar. If not, later you get stress and eat more lagiiii…haha! XOXO =)) <3