One in a Million

It was raining so heavily and strong wind was blowing so hard till you can see the rains are being blow together in parallel ways. My mom was going to go out for awhile to buy Gas tank as our house gas had finished and she need to cook lunch. The weather was so bad and I saw her opening the gate when the umbrella was overturn due to the strong harsh wind. She drove out but my dog suddenly rushed out to chase my mom’s car and stand in front to stop her from going out to the road on this kind of weather. In the end, my mom still managed to drove out to the road. My dog came back home all wet and worried, and was in a mess he was running back and forth to get a closer look at the pathway waiting impatiently for my mom to come back. In fact, it started to make me worry coz the weather was getting worse.

I was home alone that time. I opened the door to see my dog, he rushed to me whining almost sounds like crying and looking at his worried eyes, I was shocked. Honestly, I’ve never seen my dog so worried and chaotic to this level. In fact, I was starting to worry for my mom driving in such a bad weather so I called her mobile and she picked up. She said she’s heading back now. I was praying hard for the rain and strong wind to calm and my prayer was answered. My dog was still waiting for my mom at our house open gate impatiently under the rain. Finally my mom came back home safely, he was jumping for joy again.

This sense of touching is so valuable and I realized how much our dog loved us. I never knew his love was so unlimited and touching.

He might just be a dog but their feelings are a heart of Gold. One day, one time, they can touch you without them knowing but you can see it in your own eyes. This is one of my rare incidents between us and my dog’s love.

Where can you find such a pretty yet has an unconditional love for us. One in a million love

Hope everyone will love their pet dog more unconditionally coz any separation from you is painful to them. They needed you in their life coz you make them less lonely and filled them with family love as they lost their real families.

Rage for Rugged

Mine Favourite! SCawaii Magazine

Seriously I am so influenced by reading so many fashion magazines lately at home since I am so damn free. The fashion magazine from Japan called ‘Scawaii’ are just the taste of styles I love to look and learn except the winter style that I don’t need in my brilliant summer whole day long country. Sometimes I feel lucky living in a country that doesn’t have winter coz it decreased the troublesome we have to encounter. I feel so into shopping mood and waiting for KL sales! I need to update my closet soon!

Here are the list of shopping items I am going to find :

1. A pretty jacket to match more singlet (Not sweater)

2. ‘Closed up toes’ heel

3. A ripped panty hose

4. Cardigan with half sleeve

5. Belt for dress! (Previous belt getting tighter as my WEIGHT increase)

6. RINGS (Hope I can find a Spade ring, can’t find it anywhere in Brunei)

Ripped Panty hose to match with Long blouse! I am so ready to mix and match it!!

Well, life can be so materialistic sometimes but let’s not forget it’s not easy to earn money so save up as much as you can! TATA! See you all in next post

I came to Bandar for a last week and it was brilliant. It felt so stress relieved to be able to feel free and getting to see the outside world and people everyday. It was nice to catch up all the new movies that had been out, all were awesome movies. I loved every single moment spent with baby after being distance apart from each other for quite some times as he’s working in Bandar and I had already completed my college life back there. Changing location does help a lot with our emotions. It was even more wonderful when you get to see your loved one and enjoying our time drawing our relationship closer each time we met. Our bond can’t be break that easily, baby. I love you to bits!

We are the sign of fishes that are fate to be pair up coz without one another, we would be alone swimming. Let's swim and rock the ocean, my Pisces Boy! 22 is our Anniversary. My birthday 20March + urs 2March = 22. No matter how we turn around, the number still haunted us for 4 years and counting through good and bad times.

The number determined us and to be upfront, it did freak me out a little when this number appeared constantly when we are together, in quarrel and during anniversary outing. But after years of thinking, I know this is not coincidence coz conicidence can never be so accurate and so much similarity happenings in families and in us.

It’s really nice to know that outside, there are still people who cared about the friendships we held on rather than letting go or should I say eliminated. Meeting back college mates to catch up and have a little girls’ time was another moment that unwind my soul and mind. At least I know there are still people who really precious friendship and still are able to come together as one even with distance. It was cool to walk to the Empire beach with the girls where we keep scaring ourselves with negative thoughts when we heard tree branch cracking and sound of the insect flies. But the little breeze that followed us through the pathway to the beach felt really nice. Laugh out and speak out is what I done that makes me feel better. Loves!!

Fun outing with babes to Empire and the Beach :)

Hearts U all~ !!!

Your Heart, My heart

I realized changing location and planning outside activities are quite effective in minimizing our emotional breakdown. Sometimes human acted weirdly when they get tired of their life or just being upset about the whole situation. I guess moving to another place really helped in arranging our emotions. Bring some activities, go out and have a laugh and talk with people around you. Let your heart speak out. Nobody can handle being emotional alone. Slowly, this untouched heart will eventually turn cold and breathless. Even HEARTS need to breathe through their lifeline and drain all emotional breakdowns so they can feel a slight of hope which later becomes faith. A simple heart had its limit of stuffing everything into it. They need more POSITIVE FORCE than negativities to feel ALIVE.

Treat your heart with the utmost care, they need your cooperation as well with your thoughts.

Elimination exist

There are some things I realized that human can be so complicated. There was once a gang, an attached friendship that you met in the circle. Then suddenly, one by one was eliminated due to certain circumstances and there left this person with the few people in your gang left happily ever you like. It sure brings back some misses and pain at my memories but I know it okay and I really don’t have to feel that way coz life goes on with or without you. In fact, we were not meant to be attached for permanent with these fates.

Remember this?

the evening SunSet

till it's gone

At least I know the true colors of everyone and leaving all these here. Thanks for filling in my memories and spaces, giving me chance to interfere with so many exciting moments and being together fighting for ups and downs. All these memories still haunted me and my mind gets louder than ever still flashing all those moments. It certainly wasn’t a perfect ending but I’m not asking for more, it’s all written in our fate. Farewell~

Last but not least...

I would like to wish my buddy M.Y, get well soon and please don’t make us worry. Life goes through lots of stages, the good and the bad and tragedies. Tragedies can happen in a flash and yet we can’t turn back time to change it. I know how it feels to be stuck in hospital freezing and sickness in the air, and missing the wonderful live you got back before and wanting to get out of there. I have been in your shoes and I know exactly how it feels.

Stay strong coz everything will be fine.

GET WELL SOON!
XOXO =)

Heart Unsaid

When you’re growing up, you started to see changes in people as well as surroundings. Changes can be nasty but can be good. Some turned around from their mistakes but some people just continued their bloody mistakes when they have lack of love. Life was meant to be complicated since the beginning. But I don’t get it why some people who have tons of love from people but yet they still want to feel miserable. Don’t they know they’re so fortunate to be love and cared. It’s so foolish to be miserable when there are still people who loved you for who you are and always remember you are the special one. I was wondering why I have to feel so miserable and ask myself whether I was worth living. Sometimes, I feel like I’m nothing and just a piece of vase useless enough.

In fact, don’t feel less than perfect coz PERFECT NEVER EXIST! Swallow the fear and mistakes you made, turned from your shadows of past. Be grateful that you’re alive with all you have is more than enough.

I believe GOOD THINGS do happen in life but on a happy day, we still can feel sad. That’s life, isn’t it?

"Happy Mother Day" to all Mommies in the world. Give your biggest love to her

BBQ

I felt glad that I was able to celebrate my bestie’s 19th birthday at her house last Saturday. We joined the celebration with both her family and relatives having BBQ. Everyone was enjoying their moment so does us. Although I gave her a simple gift but I promise to keep looking for a better gifts year by year for her birthday.

It’s always not easy choosing a gift for someone special in your life. I know how it felt to be stress over finding a birthday gift and the fact that Brunei is so small. Everything that sells here seems to be quite common to us. But I also know that the most important is to be truthful and thankful for all the people that are here to celebrated with you. Everyone ought to feel lucky and happy that there are so many people who truly want you to feel like the happiest girl, family and friends around you. They are the root to your life and heal for your wound coz without their love. You will feel something missing to that puzzle in your heart. I know I’m kind of late to post this but I still want to. HEHEH!

The moments of Youth's happiness is just amazing. Getting older doesn't means we still can't have fun.

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See you in next post! =)

My lovely dog

HELLO, EVERYBODY !!

As I’m always staying at home, I realized I spent so much time with my dog than before when I was always in Bandar for the past two years. We created a bond together, treating him like a sibling of mine as he makes me less lonely and more lovable every time. He doesn’t have a name but I just called him ‘Ko pi.’ By the way, I called every dog “Ko pi” unless they got a name. I happened to start adopting dog as pet since I was just a toddler in my family. I have been replacing my dogs when they are gone or died, I know their lifeline is shorter than human that’s why I stopped giving name for them coz of losing faith that they still going to leave me one day although we love each other to bits. I don’t want to remember the names of all my past dogs and feel sad about it.

His Play toy!!

Enjoying his time with his new toy!

I bought my dog a toy ball from Supasave with bestie after knowing that he really like to put stuffs in his mouth and carry it around to show us with his fluffy tail shaking happily making us smile with his cuteness. I need to throw the ball to let him chase it and give it back to me. The problem is that he never gave me back the ball, when I want to pull it out from his mouth. He further bite it and put deeper into his mouth and tighter. Wtf. HAHA! Sometimes I feel like the bonds and love we shared is getting deeper that I’m afraid of losing him. Out of so many past dogs, he is one of the special and cutest dog I ever had for the past 21 years behind. He doesn’t have good appetite and eat madly like other dogs but he needs lots of love and pat on his head every time and wait for us to walk with him in the evening. He's just like a human being that really need to feel love from his family. One thing that I really appreciated him beside being cute looking, he's also a guard for our house. At least, he's not just a vase but a protection for our safety.

Dog have six sense, they can sense when their time has come and the person they wanted to see is YOU before they die. I remembered my dad used to adopted a dog that he loved a lot. But one time, his dog got really sick but my dad was in offshore. After few days, my dad finally came back home and saw him in this situation. The dog was happy but weak to finally see his favourite owner back, but that very minute he took one look at my dad and closed his eyes peacefully. That was really devastating and touching for him to hold on so long. That explained how much your dog loves you. They want their owner to be there for them through difficult journeys before departing. Dogs can bring the biggest joy and emotional feelings to human that are worth hundreds of memories and that's why they are

"MEN'S BEST FRIEND!"

When they're lost, they needed you the most through difficult journeys

Dogs have at least 10years to go so you better precious your moment with them as they truly need your love and care. Their life depends on you! Love them with all your heart! Remember they love and need you=)